Saturday, May 23, 2009
Oh please don't let what little magic there is now wear out on me. To keep smiling and laughing and constantly wanting to burst into a million colours as i prance up and down my living room like a mindless dancer.
The feeling of a weightless flight when you're so grounded at the same time.
What else can it be, if it's not magic? =)
3:38:00 AM
Saturday, May 16, 2009
There's this...strange emptiness i feel wheneveri look at msn, or think of.. people in general.
It's like i have to keep watching movies to get rid of that.
I don't want to keep feeling like this.
It's like i have so many things i want to do, and say..
but i'm just not doing them. i'm like, scared, of god knows what.
I feel miserable.
but i'll just have to keep on smiling and laughing.
living on temporary high.
that's what i do best right.
btw, my cousin, jac and i went out the other day .
it was so awesome.
we spent like the whole day shopping and i don't have to give
a shit about what others think or what she thinks about me.
it's such a great feeling.
the things we talk about.
and the problems we share.
and we got a bracelet together, which is awesome.
gives me a sense of belonging.
which i need. reassurance and stuff.
like how she tells me she loves me all the time.
hahaha.
it's great having someone like that man.
Thanks jac! hahaha =)
i'm not that miserable after all.
11:29:00 PM
Monday, May 11, 2009
Haha. I reflected anndddd. I made wonderful memories.
Those were good times. haha.
And it makes me smile. =)
HAhahah. Oh crap, my stomach's hurting again..
It's been hurting a lot lately.. =/
no i don't need to shit. -,-
HAhah
Ohwelllss.
Happyy memoriiess.
I love photographs.
5:16:00 AM
Saturday, May 02, 2009
This is a reminder.
There are a few things on my mind right now.
so many ugly feelings.
makes me feel ugly.
like i can't face anyone kind of ugly.
cause i'm so embarressed of myself.
BUT.
PLEASE FOCUS ON WORK.
WORK FIRST.
SCREW the rest of the emotions.
work work work work.
Do your work.
5:07:00 PM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
what do you do when there are things you just can't say. and there are things you just can't do.
haha.
9:54:00 PM
Monday, April 06, 2009
i'm going to try a little harder. for the ones at home.
because they make me feel like it's enough
to just be home.
like it matters a lot to them.
just my presence.
When everyone's together..
it feels great!
it's like i don't even have to try
and i'd feel so appreciated.
no matter what shit i'd do along the way.
and i can say the same for them.
awesome.
it took me 19 years to fully realize this.
HAHAh.
3:14:00 AM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Fucker. fucker fucker fucker fucker fucker fucker fucker fucker.
fuck fuck fuck fuck.
FUCKER.
PFFFFTTTTTTT.
4:32:00 PM